looking at the big picture from up above....

....everything is going smoothly with my life....thank god.....cuz for people who know me......i get highly aggravated when things dont go my way or as i planned!...lol.....name changes are almost complete....changing your name is a HUGE chore!....bill companies are so different.....some will change your name over the phone, some want a fax of your legal documents and some want you to come into the office to show proof.....crazy!.......and most assume you got your name change because you got married!!......why.....lol...cuz people dont know any better....people are not familiar with changing your name due to gender.....and thats what i have been telling them....work is a little different...i have to change my work email address and my user accounts on applications that i use daily....again, today it was assumed i got married......i told them no i didnt get married...its just a name change.....i have only told my direct co-workers why i changed my name.....the 2 people that i work with on a day-to-day basis...the 2 people that know my gf's name.......the 2 people that matter......while i would love to tell the entire company that i have come out as a transman, would that hurt me in the long run?...this is one of the downfalls of working for corporations--eventually i will have my own business---...i dont want to get fired from my job for coming out....but i dont want to hide who i am either.....im proud....and i will never deny...and i will always tell the truth when asked....i believe thats very important to our self worth and individuality.......so...what is the job etiquette for a transman?.....maybe its still new to the general population of the world.....i see more and more individuals coming out as trans...---they are a lot younger than me...lol.....but damnit!!...im a late bloomer....always have and always will be---.....but how to handle it in the work place or how to handle it on a day to day normal living.....still needs more awareness.....its coming.....its like when the word "gay" first came out.........thats crazy to think i lived through that generation!.....now here i am!.......and i have never been happier in my whole life!!!!!!!!....

unfortunately.....the business will need to be put on hold for about a month......not happy about it...but....its for a good thing....we are moving out of this beautiful townhome we have been living in for about a yr and a half......living in a very nice place in a very hoytie area is not all its cracked up to be.....the rent is way too high here.....im tired of not having any money to spend on toys!........i have planned out expenses for the next couple of years and i want to make it reality.....for my transition and for the business.....for once in my life i see my path.....i have been able to see it since march of this yr.....since i realized i was an ftm.....i have been focused.....and i want to stay that way......i see the path so clearly....and its such a good feeling to have.....to know where im going.......and i refuse to lose it...i refuse to steer off the road....at any cost.....and i wont.....period!.......so...we are moving to a central location....cheaper rent.....way cheaper!......i feel its a very smart move.....by then i will be on t and seriously getting reelvisionstudios off the ground!.....god!.....this journey is so wonderful and i look forward to whats about to happen!!!.....
......."sicko" friday night!!!..........AND.......HP July 11!!....at 12.01am......AND..... testosterone July 13!!!!......
...one more thing....my little buddy is a part of me now....literally....